There is a time when you think about the things that has happened in your life and wonder how did you reach this place where you are right now. Not everyone who dreamed of something 10 years ago reached their dreams. But our lives cannot depend just on our dreams. You have to work hard for it. 10 years ago I was receiving shipments and documents in the front office of the very first company I worked for. Lucky for me during that time, I was already a regular employee with medical and dental and allowances and I had dreams of living in the city. A couple of years later I reached that dream of living in the city but I did not really feel satisfied attaining that dream.
But today my dreams have changed. I want something else. Not bigger things but more meaningful things. You see I do not really see myself being married and having kids although I work with kids now. I guess it would not really work out for me to settle down. In 6 years of working abroad I have learned so many things that I am sure I would never learn if I never left home. I feel like if I surround myself with people who live for their principles, if I read a lot, if I travel a lot and if I meet different new people, that is what going to changed me. If I stayed at home, I would definitely still be chasing that big city dream of having my own place, my own car and comparing notes of the best places to eat and hang out with my fellow colleagues who are raising a family at the same time. I will always be the uncle of the kids of my colleagues and old friends and will just be buying them stuff because I do not have any one else to buy stuff for.
Of course I want my own place and my own but while I am living abroad, I do not have to worry about that yet. Just save up continuously and reward myself with some travel deals so I can see the world and learn more things. My problem with living in the Philippines is that most of the people are looking to what is happening in the US. Whatever they have should be franchised in any of the sophisticated location in the capital. But that situation does not really apply in the Philippines. Most Southeast Asian nation does it. I guess because of these nations really look at what is happening in western countries. But anyway, my point being is that living abroad made me realize about other important things that is going right now. I will discuss details of that in a different blog.
10 years ago, I never really thought that I will be where I am exactly right now. working in this antique table on the 17th floor of an apartment at the central business district of Jakarta. I guess destiny has its own ways to get in to you. I am looking out in the window now and all I can see is boredom. I may get anything what I ant now but there is still this boredom that hits you. I remember this mantra by Adam Braun, the founder of Pencil Of Promise, that says "Why Be Normal?" I always tell myself to be different, to make a difference and do not become a part of the mediocre world out there. There are so many people in the world right now and whatever you are thinking, whatever idea you got, if you do not do something about it then somebody will just come and do it for themselves without you knowing. Next thing you know, someone else thought of what you were thinking.
As long as I am here in Jakarta, I won't be able to do a thing. I won't be able to make a difference because of the limitation I have. I do not speak their language. Even if I keep saying that our culture are pretty similar, I still could not do something because I do not have any connections. All I can do right now is just sketch and write.
I wish I do could more.
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23July2014
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